Street
Street is copyright © 1994, 2002, Jack Cady, all rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form, by any means electronic or mechanical, without prior permission of the publisher, with the exception of brief passages quoted in reviews.
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Originally published by St. Martin’s Press, New York, ISBN 0-312-11455-9
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“An exceptional writer.”
— Joyce Carol Oates
“A lasting vioce in modern American literature”
— Atlanta Constitution
“An uncompromising urban nightmare and a fable for our time. As a demonstration of the superiority of literary excellence over excess, it’s a joy to read.”
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Dedicated to Seattle’s street people, of whom some served as models for this book.
C O N T E N T S
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I
CHORUS
II
THE SET
THE CAST
ACT ONE
III
IV
V
VI
ACT TWO
VII
VIII
IX
X
ACT THREE
XI
XII
XIII
XIV
ACT FOUR
XV
XVI
XVII
XVIII
XIX
XX
ACT FIVE
XXI
XXII
XXIII
XXIV
XXV
CHORUS
About the Author
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There is an accursed thing in the midst of thee, O Israel; thou canst not stand before thine enemies, until ye take away the accursed thing from among you.
Joshua 7:13
STREET
I
CHORUS
I AM A FAMILIAR OF SHADOWS, a keeper of sacred flame. Neon and glitter I watch; also plastic, enamel, anodized aluminum on the shiny sides of modern architecture, and the unfogginess of thermopane. I watch from shadows lying in the nave of The Sanctuary, or through stained-glass arches. The Sanctuary is an abandoned church standing in a poor neighborhood of this northwest city. Its belltower rises above traffic like a gray remonstrance. I discovered it long ago, on a green and golden morning during spring.
I walked with a friend that Sunday morning. What took us to this part of town now lies beyond memory. We were actors, and were poor. Perhaps we had been traveling. Perhaps we came from the graffiti and stench of a bus station. We were in love. I certainly remember that. Maybe youth and love were fit reasons to walk. We turned a corner and saw gray walls of The Sanctuary rising almost whitely into sunlight. A spot of brilliant green seemed an ornamental pendent below the dark shadow of nave. A woman sat quietly as we approached.
“Look,” my friend whispered, “she’s gorgeous. A transvestite in the sun.”
“I care for no woman but you,” I told her, and it was a poor joke.
The woman — he — she at any rate, truly gorgeous — sat on gray concrete steps before The Sanctuary. Perfectly fitted and perfectly made up; her long auburn hair fell gently around a small and delicate face. A gown of filmy green stuff was glazed with sunlight, her breasts too small to cast a shadow. The gown crossed a stockinged calf at a casual angle. Green shoes suggested small and dancing feet. Makeup which might have been harsh in daylight was so soft her face seemed natural as a child’s. A cigarette lighter shone like a dropped coin beside her. She toked on a joint. Sunlight spread like a benediction, and in the street a police car passed harmless by. The cop slumped above his steering wheel, a loafing and sleepy nemesis.
In those days I was young and in love, fascinated with sex, yet fearful; and awash in the fecundity of spring. There was something both horrible and strange about lusting after a man who had shaped himself as a woman. And, of course, it was not the man — or even the woman he portrayed — but the illusion that tightened my groin and made me laugh in a silly way. My friend and I passed silent by, turned another corner, resumed our lives. I did not even think of The Sanctuary for years, not even when grotesque murder began to walk widely along the street.
My lover’s career eventually took off, and so she had to leave. She now succeeds in New York City. My own career descended to the crazy gravity, the take and retake of television commercials. I became renowned in the TV trade, selling countless Fords, hairsprays, ready-made suits, plane tickets to Bermuda or Topeka, dating services for the wistful, and public spots in behalf of wildlife, elder citizens, African orphans, condoms distributed to teenagers. Good and Evil, the Divine and the Silly, run paths through my career. Perhaps I did not do too much damage. I’d like to believe that, while knowing the truth is elsewhere. I recoil from my sleazier deeds.
In addition, a man gets tired, even when the pay is adequate. If one gets the right kind of push, one is likely to chuck the whole business.
The push arrived. For over ten years this city lay shocked by a regular series of murders. Corpses of young women appeared among dense shrubbery in remote sections of the countryside. Police could never find a freshly murdered corpse, only remains. The murderer killed, took vacations, returned to kill some more. Many of the victims were runaway girls or prostitutes, but some were not. Polite people became alarmed. TV anchors developed looks of woe to be tuned in as needed.
Then I did a radio spot for a cheap-shot horror movie. In the movie the inevitable female victims were found wearing black ribbons at their wrists. Corpses continued to appear in the surrounding countryside, but now they were ornamented with black ribbons. The murderer, or someone, returned to decorate the dead.
My father was a preacher. Some early training never completely disappears. I felt self-implicated — at least, self-associated — in murder. Guilt drove me, fatigue drove me. In moral confusion I banked my gains and tried to cut my losses. I fled to the silence of The Sanctuary.
Murders most foul. They are concluded now, the conclusion coming just before the cleansing days of Lent. The murderer is dispatched to hellish eternity, and so, perhaps, am I; but let us have one more performance. Enter with me into this theatre, the street, and let us walk through our play together. Although we speak of the recent past, let us stroll in present tense.
The world’s a stage. That is not new news. We are all audience and actors, we strut and fret, the whole damned thing is theatre. I actually used to believe that.
II
THE SET
DUTCH IMMIGRANTS BUILT THE SANCTUARY in 1901. It was not called a sanctuary then, but the Dutch Reformed Church. Their Dutch streets were squared to the last millimeter. Even today the cut and fitted stones of those original streets remain, covered with macadam. On wet nights in this Pacific Northwest, when streetlights chase shadows, and as emergency vans clang toward a hospital a mile off, I watch from the belltower as if seeing a stage on which the past plays to an emptying house.
The Dutch have a reputation for being hard-headed — or block-headed. These Vandermeers and Van Loons and Van Pelts cling to their small houses no less firmly than New York patroons once grasped their thousands of acres. In this city of immigrant Yankees, Orientals, Russians, Scandinavians, Germans, Irish, Mexicans, Eskimos and Indians, only the Yankees and the Dutch remain in place decade on decade. Yankees own grand houses on the hills. Dutch own lowland where sirens howl. Even today, every fi
fth or sixth house in this bleak neighborhood glistens with fresh paint. Its sidewalks are swept, its gutters flushed. Its windows gleam, and the name on the mailbox is “Van this” or “Van that.” As the old neighborhood emptied, and Mexicans moved in, church congregations dwindled. Younger Dutch built a new church on higher ground, or else joined the Episcopals. The Sanctuary was desanctified; the ground floor boarded up, gray outer walls turned to flaming billboards of graffiti.
Desanctification is the way preachers and congregations ease their conscience when abandoning a church. They pretend the act wipes away all spirits. They wave a censer, say a few words, and past darkness turns to light. Say a few more words, and that which is holy changes to that which is profane. Exeunt laughing.
Even teenage hoodlums writing fuckwords on the walls with spray paint know better. The Sanctuary is as alive as Calvinist flame. All the desanctification did was allow the entry of a few demons, and, of course, those of us who seek sanctuary.
THE CAST
FIVE OF US ARE REGULARS HERE. Allow me to introduce the cast. Although years come and go, and so do people, our community is fairly stable.
Our newest member is Symptomatic Nerve Gas, who takes his time a-dying from something gnawing on his liver. He is with us these past two years. Symptomatic Nerve Gas is florid and purpled and beefy. He is in his late fifties. A horror from earlier life lies athwart his brain. In Korea he saw death dealt on a scale larger than any seen by Genghis Khan. Although he sometimes speaks of other things to us, his only public words are “Symptomatic Nerve Gas” and “Felony Assault.” His Army pension sustains him. He strides forth each day with field pack rolled. He wears pressed pants, denim shirts fresh from the laundry; a man of military cleanliness. He stands on street corners repeating his two phrases in a command voice. People are first shocked into avoidance. Then, familiarity brings scorn, Symptomatic Nerve Gas has an important message, but no stage presence. He breaks no laws. People mistake him for a nut.
I am in love with Silk, who would be terrified if she knew. Silk is tall, iron-haired, erect, and fleet. Her large breasts fall with the grace of poured water, for Silk is not shy. Her long legs are firmly muscled like a girl’s, and she stands naked before the font some Sunday mornings. Light through stained-glass windows makes her breasts seem sacred chalices. Her hair streams to her waist, exceeding even the fall of her breasts, and what she offers — and to whom — I do not know. God or the Devil, or perhaps a patron saint. Does she offer her body, or her soul?
Silk is a private person. She was once a nun, but her church failed her through its hypocrisy. Then she was married, but the man died. Having learned hard lessons about love, she now loves small things only. The beauty of an ivory button salvaged from a discarded shirt will enthrall her for days. She collects new leaves in spring, then regards them for hours. Silk is a classy dresser who does not salvage in garbage cans or dumpsters. She rummages Yankee neighborhoods where she knows cooks, chauffeurs, yardmen, maids, and laborers. She returns with an Indian bead, or the feather from a parrot, or the discarded photograph of a kitten, now long grown to a cat, then aged to a dead cat, then to a memory.
Is it any wonder that I love her? While most of us here are beyond the compulsions of youth, yet I remain stunned on those days when sun through stained-glass windows gilds her body blue and purple and rose and gold.
By any standard of sanity or madness, Hal is probably crazy-as-hell. However, on these sacred grounds of sanctuary we do not write the standards: except, perhaps, standards of compassion. While actors take many roles, Hal settles on only one. He is seriously an English gentleman of a time before England had gentlemen; however, Hal does not understand that. Hal is celibate, thirty, dresses in medieval costumes of forest green, carries a calling horn fashioned from deer antler. His pride is a two-handed broadsword strapped over his shoulder and across his back. It is a genuine and costly Toledo blade chased by Spanish genius with dragons ornamenting steel. Its hilt shows lions rampant. He is courtly in gesture, unquestionably courageous, capable of saving maidens.
As with all of us, Hal’s history is no secret. He is a remittance man. His wealthy Virginian family pays him to stay away from Virginia. We speculate that the family’s wealth is such that it does not want someone around who is interested in justice.
For my own part, I admit there may be great beauty in monomania. Hal’s hair is blond and long, his face thin and aristocratic. When he kneels before the altar in prayer or supplication, centuries shrug and slide away. A sense of the primeval rises, and the cross of the sword’s hilt above Hal’s shoulder is sensible as faith. It matches the fading cross on the altar cloth, and Hal’s face is radiant.
He loves the Virgin Mary a lot more than any Dutch Calvinist ever loved her. Hal is a defender of the faith. He has never sliced a head from a body with that sword — for surely we would have heard — but he is young and strong and has prevented rapes. Should he pass you on the street do not mistake his nobility or intent.
No poet should be asked to put up with the twentieth century, but Elgin does since he’s here and cannot help it. Elgin is mismatched in time. A hundred and twenty-nine years ago, when the Civil War ended, his people stood blinking in southern sunlight and faced the cold realization that they were free. They took last names — White, Black, Masters — and some of them handled freedom pretty well. Elgin would have fumbled the situation. The nineteenth century was no place for him, either, he has a shy soul, a mighty voice encased in a tiny and often muttering body. Only his words are not intimidated.
In the eighteenth century, two hundred and twenty-nine years ago, Elgin’s people raised indigo around Philadelphia, tobacco in Virginia. Yankee slave ships briskly sailed in front of Yankee winds. Slaves slaved and loved and bred and sang and died. Elgin could have done those things, but would not have excelled.
In the seventeenth century, three hundred and twenty-nine years ago, his people faced the hot green forests of the coastal south, the muddy streets of a small town named Boston. Philadelphia would not come into being for another fifteen years. Southern plantations were still unrisen from the forests. Elgin could have made a difference. He would have built original myths, stated fundamental problems. He might have been a master singer, removing puzzlement from his people. Elgin is tribal, but black folk have not been tribal for centuries.
He is a small man with a big nose and delicate hands. He dresses in denim, wears discarded blankets when he cannot find a usable coat. His big nose sniffs out the scents of poverty, of cappuccino, of salt spume blown off Puget Sound. He whiffs his celebratory way past the sour scents of winos, the Republican scents of shopping ladies, the smell of new leather from expensive stores, the warm smell of cheeses at the public market. Elgin speaks poetry on street corners. Sometimes a college jock tape-records him, then publishes the results. Elgin is said to be a great poet by those who know about such things. No one buys him a new coat, though. No one buys him a new blanket.
And then, of course, I seek sanctuary here as well, as murders accumulate along the street. You know me. I sold you your VCR, the aluminum siding for your house. You’ve watched me pitch discount books, records, R-rated clothing for your kids, brag about flea spray. My face once earnestly enjoined you to believe that bankers are your friends. My voice was once the voice of Jehovah, commanding your attention to the godly powers of toilet bowl cleaner. You’ll also recall those days of talking beer cans, sensual waterbeds (filled, I implied, with love potions), quick and dirty diet plans. I sold steak knives, mail-order degrees in business and divinity, low-fat cheeseburgers, quickie-lubrications. During political seasons I sought your vote in behalf of mayors, senators, judges, and the death penalty.
These days I am about other matters, for actors need not be ignoble. Former colleagues shake their heads and say, “He’s off his trolley.” Or, they say, “This business would drive anybody nuts.” Or, they say, “If I live to see retirement, I may pull the same stunt.”
I mast
er a multiplicity of roles. It is my way of seeking atonement; for I have used the sacred art of theatre to sell goods. That alone asks for atonement, but even worse, my sales in no small way helped create a killer.
Now I use the art for its own sake, keeping myself alive by nourishing art’s sacred flame. Although, I confess, I am not the world’s greatest actor. I am just an awfully good actor. I am an actor who walks among you with far more certainty than those first actors of recorded history, the biblical spies who Joshua sent to scout out Jericho. (You’ll recall the ram’s horns later blew, the walls came tumblin’ down.)
I walk among you watching and waiting for the walls to crumble, although for a long time I wondered what walls you own. If you read this in a library, I may be the bleary-eyed ancient who mumbles at the next table while pretending to read the newspaper. If your business takes you to town I may be the cripple who bums you for a quarter, or a tired-looking waitress. Perhaps you read this on a bus as you travel to work. I may be the elegantly dressed woman in the seat across the aisle, or the cultured gentleman in the seat behind — the gentleman who stares forward over your shoulder.
Do not be alarmed. I’m harmless, I think. Besides, when murderers stalk your satisfied streets, what can a poor actor do to cause you fear?
ACT ONE
III
THIS WEEK I TAKE THE ROLE of Indian wino, an aging Tlingit seduced south from Alaska by hopes of warmth and wealth. Evil things occur, and my dreams would make me weep if I did not almost understand them. I dream of killer whales, then wake to gray skies and the patter of rain pocking the surface of Puget Sound. I dream of meeting a salmon, of having the salmon hop into my arms, and he is weightless and made of clear light. The salmon and I talk together, and he explains everything. I wake with joy, then sadness, for I cannot remember his words — only know that on some level my mind understands all there is.